Seeing my cars on exhibit was like being hit by a splash of cold water. It sort of woke me up to the reality of my pieces being exhibited. I am quite excited about them being exhibited, especially since they were selected via a competition, but up until seeing them in reality at the gallery, it felt sort of like a dream. And with this exhibit, I am going to take my work a little bit more seriously.
When I started scratch-building model train cars, I dreamed of being great and getting lots of recognition, but I thought that deep down I was fantasizing. You know how it is. When you were a kid or a teen, you started working on some project and had big dreams of how wonderful it would turn out, but it never did. It sort of fizzled after a period of time. Nobody cared about it. Or nobody professionally would give it credit. Or you just got tired of working on it and quit.
After hanging on for a year at this, I decided that this was more than a lark. I started treating this as a business - albeit one that didn’t earn any money. This being an important step. Even if nobody recognized it but me, it was important for me to start treating it this way. I started keeping a timesheet and an expense log. Since I earned no money, I couldn’t deduct anything, but so what - there is an old adage that if you believe something to be true then it will be true (for you at least). I spent 656 hours working on my model train from Sept 1, 2006 through August 31, 2007.
This exhibit is for me proof that I can be an artist. Who knows if I will ever earn any money as an artist, so I will not be quitting my day job! But nonetheless, it marks a new era for me. I have laid out a plan for building my artist resume. It includes entering more NMRA modeling awards - and going to higher level meets in addition to my sub-regional group, doing some NMRA clinic presentations for my sub-regional NMRA group, writing some articles for NMRA publications, and trying to get more work exhibited locally.
I’m also contemplating changing my daily schedule. I’m thinking about getting up earlier, working on my train cars, then going to work a smidge later than normal, working a smidge later than normal, coming home to read/relax for a short bit and eat dinner, then going to bed early. I accidentally did this after returning from Switzerland while I still had jetlag. I found the experience to be nice-feeling. The whole point of this is that I might do better work on my train if I did it upon waking rather than relying on my day at work to not wear me out. Shifting my day-job by an hour should work better since many times clients prefer to meet in the early evening so that they don’t have to leave work early.
I’ve been poking at the getting up earlier thing here and there for the past couple months. Since I have quite a reputation for sleeping as late as possible, I’ve occasionally surprised a friend by sending email at 7:00 in the morning. I’m not totally convinced that I can make this getting up early adjustment, nor have I decided on how early is early. I’ve been trying to get up at 6:30a, but in reality getting up about 7:00a. And have determined that this is not early enough. It gets me some time in the morning, but not enough to sit down and work. I’ll probably target 5.30a and see how that goes. It may turn out to be a fantasy, or it may turn out to be a reality that really does put my art first, in my mind at least.